Thursday, January 9, 2014

Help me Help You

 Lets talk for realzies this time like real hardcore real real.

 I am not going to hide it like my parents do.. Shoving the unwanted mess into the closet... Because we all know that if we don't see it, it must not be there.

Well IT IS there and will always be there. It's always going to be the elephant in the room as we sit and eat dinner. The elephant in the room as we talk about who is going to give you a ride home because we all know you got your license suspended. THE elephant in the room when we all know you only go to hang out with your "friends" on the weekends so you can drink, become drunk and pass out a couple hours later on somebody's couch.

The elephant in the room because I have an alcoholic sister.

I have a sister who lies to me without batting an eye. I have a sister who was angry when I found out she was in jail because she wants me to see her as some bullshitty rolemodel. If she "loved" me that much why does she despise hanging around me SO much?!

I have a sister who will only tell you what you "want" to hear, because everything else takes effort. I have a sister who used to be my best friend. I have a sister who everyone wants to hear about what she is doing with her life. What the hell am I supposed to say? "Ah yeah my sister is doing great spending her birthday in jail and lying in a drunken stupor on the weekends while you just got off your mission".

I have a sister who used to listen to what I would say. I have a sister who used to hug me and not push me away from her. I have a sister who knows what hell she is putting my parents through and continues to do it. I have a sister who puts the self in selfie because it is all about her.

 I have a sister who makes me cry at night as I wonder what all time low it is going to take to get my beloved sister back. I have a sister who will not let me help her.

Please, Help me Help you.

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